Sessions that uncovered my being

This blog post is unpolished version of an article for a book that collects various hypnotherapy cases (the book is not in my mother tongue so the article is in English). I was asked by a friend to write it and I am sharing it here, inspired by the questions my clients always have after the session. I also had them, and questioned myself million times. Sessions do not give immediate results, at times not even the results we want (mental mind won't make you invent the story but it might stop you from having it, or can influence the way you interpret information being given; anyways, that story has a meaning for you and there is a reason that particular one came to you). My experience was that that one should let it unfold naturally and if there is something you are still having struggles with after it, it only points the direction you should go next. For me, it was like this:

I got introduced to hypnotherapy by trying to work out some personal problems.

I was trying to heal a broken relationship and my broken heart. I was not researching a lot about it, I just felt the solution to my problems is somewhere in past lives so I went for that. I searched more for an appropriate therapist than a method so eventually I went for a group session first. It did not deal with past lives but it did lift me to a soul level where I met my guides who pointed out that I should become a hypnotherapist myself. This session turned out the direction of my life completely. When I got to my training, I had a bit more problems than just a relationship issue. I have had serious spine problem for a while and my mother had passed away suddenly 2 weeks prior to training. My emotional body was in excruciating pain and it communicated to me through my physical body with unexplainable health issues. So, in many sessions to come I worked with that mostly.

In one of my very first sessions I went to my Akasha records although it was not a part of the process it started with. I was working on healing a wild woman within. After expressing all of the feelings that were blocking me, I was able to meet this crazy orange haired woman but she did not want to talk. She danced me straight into a book, on a page that contained a scene of a mountain and a cave. I was very lucky that I had skilled, grounded and charged with energy therapist as I tend to unintentionally block therapists that are energetically weaker than me. It this kicked me up and the scenery was very 3D movie like. Actually it kept changing, I was moving from being young Native American to Amazonian. At both times I had a jaguar by my side (for protection), and an eagle above and landing on my hand followed with words ‘this is my bird.’ In prairie I was running towards a reddish mountain, and in Amazon there was a river with a waterfall that had a cave behind it, which I climbed into. I was mixing and cooking some herbs and said I was a Medicine woman wounded with a spear of some sort. This session influenced my life by helping me fix my spine problem (before I could experience all mentioned, I had to kick out a being attached to it, and until today I am unsure what that was). I was working on it before this session, of course, and after it, but it was healed completely, as prognosis for it was serious and now I do everything as before. It does come up at times to point a direction, though. So it also got me interested in shamanism so following autumn I received my first shamanic initiation with rites coming from Mexican tradition. This year I have completed that process with Munay ki rites, from Peruvian tradition. From that session, and following I have understood better how my energy functions and that I already have an unconscious spiritual knowledge that I unknowingly use and that was what was breaking my body, I was storing everything in me. I never imagined achieving something like this prior to that hypnotherapy session; I only wanted to fix a relationship. (That relationship never got fixed, by the way).

Once I became a hypnotherapist, and my spine was healed, I still felt I needed to work on myself as I needed to give myself a better protection. Also, the unhealed relationship created energy blocks in my heart that I felt very much while working. My next life changing session took me to an existence I had before coming to Earth. It felt like something Atlantis like. It was actually the Earth but on a different level of existence. There I was a guardian of something, a temple of a sort. I had luminous ethereal angelic like body (well, something with wings anyway). I was just one part of me, the other part was exactly the same, only male, and together we formed one sphere. At the same time, we were very able to be disconnected and separate, while connected with luminous threads. Our primary role was a sort of priesthood, by performing rituals and magic. My special thing was manifesting stuff with my hands. Our home then got attacked by alien beings and we were captured and separated in order to break the channel. I was hit by an arrow with poison in my left hip (that later on moved and caused my spine problems). That issue has prevented me from manifesting anything in my life and caused many struggles. I was taken to a cave and chained, with no access to light, that made me wither. I did not like this situation so basically I went out of that body on my own, at will and came back through time to prevent these events (I actually said to my bewildered therapist that we are working in the past and this life I was seeing was in the future). I first came back to a life as young Native American in the middle of initiation ritual, preformed by my grandfather that was followed with a massacre (I was initiated though). I saw myself walk into a tent minutes before massacre, went out of my body and straight to this present life time in a ball of light. The body just disappeared. I discovered much later that it was a Navaho life. (By the way, this was the only session so far that I was completely baffled with and in disbelief of what I was seeing). However, my hip could not be healed in this process due to origins of poison (?) as I was plainly told. I was directed to ajahusca (I swear and my therapist is a witness). Within a week there was an opportunity to participate in a ceremony but that is another story.

I said many strange things in this particular session, like the one that I am an experiment (I still do not know what that means), that my energy is different in vibration because of the place of the origin of the energy (I was actually referring to humans as ‘them’), that my mission is to develop immunity to lower vibrations by being exposed and immersed in them and take that changed energy home for others as a vaccine of a sort that would enable them to exist in it without harming them. (what do you think what my mind said about that!!??) This actually got me into tears as I am extremely energy sensitive and I used to get sick easily, so this meant it can’t be changed and that I had to undergo painful processes to change energetically (that actually happened and still is).

But before that could happen I still had some energy blocks that hurt my body so I worked some more on this. After 8 past life regressions I finally met my soul. It was visiting even before (I did not know what that was though) but this time it was fully present in all its glory. I had this horrible pain in my neck and a ballerina pirouetting on my screen every time I closed my eyes. Her life was a rise and fall story. From respected prima ballerina in a Russian theater to death in a labor/concentration camp. She kept me away from the stage and life of glory this time, as I never had a need to be famous and promote my talents, but she also hindered my success at times. I needed to take back her ability to connect to the magnificence of my soul and its shine rather than to relive her traumas. Even today I dread a bit of having an audience (and having my photos taken) as in that life the same people that lifted her up dragged her down through the mud. I was then able to see my dazzling spirit (because that was what it is). I went to the edge of the Universe in a place of violet, blue, golden plasma field. I called it Shambala. At first I was a being of violet color that changed into transparent shine. I was a creator soul, with a mission of making planets with other soul group members (that mainly don’t incarnate anymore, as I was told). Teacher souls and souls of planets lived and learned in this realm. My particular group went to planets, and infused them with life and different forms (??). My first material form was one of a dragon like being on a distant star. My soul purpose is educating creators in a wizard school of a sort (not by myself, but again ??) and teaching them to restore Earth by using their energy for creation rather than trading with it. That last session was followed by initiation to Munay Ki rites.

The sessions I have described have changed the direction of my life but in a subtle way. All of this was already in me so I am not feeling it gave me anything new but they did open some gates that were not visible for me before. Nothing of what I worked on turned out as I hoped it would. But it opened up a whole new world that is still in the process of making. What is interesting though is how unhealed emotions from past lives influenced this one. Broken relationship and health issues led me to where I actually needed to be, to meet souls I agreed to meet, and although I did not fix that relationship, and that person, that heart break that made me want to die, led me to heal myself. Plus, I do not look down on people that are in a grip of sadness due to a grand loss and their desire to skip a life, because I was one of them. I understand them and they turn to me because I do not tell them they are weak because they are able to let themselves be open by love in this extreme way. It made me a hypnotherapist and an Earth keeper. I was able to see my soul pattern through these sessions, I was expansive and free willed soul and got the worst of it because of being who I am, and so when it got really unbearable I would just skip into a next life, where I hoped I could finally expand. Now I believe I have expanded and have changed that pattern by listening to my higher guidance (stay tuned). My soul still asks me to trust it with processes I do not fully understand nor do I see where they lead. Seemingly nothing changed on the outside but my energy is filled with potential, I am being transformed not only changed and the effects of it are yet to come. I was given purpose. I wish the same for everybody. Besides, it made me into a very good therapist. And it all started from simple self hypnosis session that led to uncovering of my hidden potential.