My Hybrid Soul

‘Hybrid souls during their first incarnations on Earth after lives on other planets often have problems, but once they survive those early lives, they can give big contribution to the society. Hybrid souls are on Earth as former alien beings. They are usually here with a task of specializing a skill, one of those is planetary healers. Planetary healers have two main professions for advanced souls: a) environmental healers or ecological energy specialists, and b) unifying souls that balance energy of planetary events and human relations. Advanced souls that are not undergoing training for some special skill do not incarnate.' Michael Newton, Memories of the afterlife

I have a need to speak about this topic, from my personal experience, but I would invite you to have an open mind because I am still in the process of integrating information I have and tend to question its validity. In my recent spiritual regressions, and energy healing that my body needed, I have discovered my alien lives. I also had clients with similar experiences but their worlds were less dramatic than mine. They were mostly practicing how to be in a body, actually in energy denser than soul energy is, on distant stars. Throughout my life I have often felt as an alien that has just walked out of a space shuttle. And I was not far from the truth. In one of my galactic incarnations I was a warrior, a leader of an intergalactic fleet that was defense force against another alien race. (This might come as a surprise for those who know me, because I am a bit of a wall flower with peace development certificate in possession; then again, those were peace missions too). I am not sure what has happened there, but this was a sequel of my first incarnation in form (meaning ever), when I was a dragon like being. With my soul group, I lived on a star we created together, each one in charge for a particular element (water in my case). Some conflict has happened there, a rivalry, between golden and black dragons (at least this is how I saw this change), and it included my primary soul mate, and accordingly, myself too. A few choose to continue incarnating on Earth. I did not have to, but I decided to follow my soul mate and learn materialization in even denser form. The idea was also to help balance this rivalry, which has put me in bad position from start, because I used to end up as a victim of it. From there I continued as a teacher and Earth guardian during Atlantis period (or on Atlantean like realm). When this world crumbled, my students abused their powers, and I decided to take their karma on me because I was loyal to the Lore of One and this is how I interpreted collective and personal responsibility. In sessions, I had to teach my subconscious that personal responsibility is a thing and that I do not have to help anyone if it will harm me (very difficult lesson for me). Of course, Soul chose all this lessons with another purpose, of enhanced development, but I haven’t fully comprehended those lessons yet, so everything written here comes with a question mark.

When the story continued on Earthly plane, it became even worse. My first earthly incarnation was in Amazon (and the only one with my soul mate here) when I was a female shaman. Everything was wonderful until the rivalry came knocking on our door. Due to influences of a near by power hungry shaman, I was sacrificed with a baby inside of me. As this was a huge trauma, that blocked my existence on many different ways during many incarnations, I am not sure if I understood everything, but this was a human sacrifice for the benefit of some tribe. My soul mate has gone a little mad and being unable to accept what happened, he kept my spirit on astral level (or a part of it), out of love, but out of need to, because my part of a channel was for materialization. A large part of our energies stayed frozen in this story, and this created blocks for both and created big soul fragmentation, plus mutual disconnect. We remained frozen in pain and rivalry that costed me life in many incarnations (I know only my part of the story, the one that I had to clear in me, clearing rivalry is not my task and not in my part of the channel). This means that I was repeating encounters with people that were responsible for my violent death, and I was repeating that too, just like in a movie ’The Groundhog Day’ (I quote my guides: ‘There is no need to learn by repeating everything so much, for God’s sake’).

For the last couple of months I was watching those incarnations of horror, and I felt them all on my skin again, because all of it was written in my body. Of course, those incarnations thought me how to move energy, healing and above all, embodiment, because my soul has a problem with understanding a body. Besides, even now when I meet members of this tribe, unexplainable fear and withdrawal would overcome me. Although they are here now to balance this experience with support they should give me, I am still unable to accept it.

So, why is this so important when we speak about the Soul? Because the Soul created all this choices, along with some other ambitious ideas and false beliefs, because with the frequency, strenght and energy level it comes from, it feels completely lost in material realm. It learned how to create by creating everything that is not supportive of her, first, and guides supported her by not interfering. Without being able to understand body and the way her energy functions (materializes spiritual and mental world in an instant), it created blocks for herself. This time I chose lessons that made me pay attention to my body and learn how to be me in it (I was told repeatedly that my energy is too strong for my body and is breaking it, but I still chose it, because its tenderness and fragility was supposed to reflect energy of love, or so I thought, plus its brain was perfect instrument for channeling). What is the meaning of all this?

Realm where my soul lives does not know restlessness and separation (bare in mind that those are artificial levels, due to explanation, Soul is a pillar of light and all those worlds we are talking about, along with hybrid definition, are different levels of manifestation). My soul group communicates by projecting energy into one another, and this is how we raise vibration to each other when needed or transform it by moving it through our own being. As everything there is light energy, it is not a problem, besides, we all do it for each other. Troubles came (for me) in matter because I continued to function in the same way, like litmus paper (without my soul group beside me to help), that also was not coded to Earth frequency (it is not a joke, I was wearing headphones for months in my ears, listening to Schuman resonance, and by now I would call myself crazy if I hadn’t felt and seen something very much alive running through my body). This also means I was not discharging energy I would take on me. Plus, it would become very interesting (unbearable) when my own energy blocks would go partying. (Well, my hara line being cut and turned into my own belly increased this inability to discharge, but trust me, you do not want to know this story...)

My Soul has this desire to help everybody and it is totally unaware that it is turning this help into self destruction because it is all mighty, selfless and pure love (so I have been told). To make things worse, when it feels aggression in any form, it would withdraw, leaving the body to face the problem on its own. So, you get the picture...

What does this tell us about hybrid souls?

Hybrid souls do not understand matter. There is a good reason that this text started with a quote about how difficult for them is to survive (by the way, lots of people that come to see me, believe they are hybrid souls, because it sounds to important, but they are not, I just got to get to know quite a few of them because of my own experience; and trust me, being a hybrid souls in not the most fortunate life’s choice). They are here to learn, but to help others and planet too, in the ascension process, because once they overcome body issues, they are able to quickly raise vibration all over. This is easier said than done because they get entangled into other peoples energy very easily, plus the rest of the world has difficulties in comprehending what is it that they feel from them that is so different. I personally need a lot of solitude because I am sensitive to all sorts of vibration that does not move anyone else (I soak in everything), and it took time to understand why do I get sick from things others enjoy (and vice versa), why do I smell, taste, feel, hear or see something that is not there or how do I know things that nobody tells me. It is very difficult to disentangle once entangled because those are not soul choices but something it creates on its own the moment it interacts with it, because it does not understand it is not a part of her energy. (I know this is difficult to grasp, I am still trying to). When it comes to clearing ones own stories, I had difficulties in understanding that too until recently, because I was actually creating the very thing I wanted to clear all over again. I had to learn to see it, descipher what is mine and what is not, return energy to its owner, release and pull back my energy from the life that was blocking me. I would identify with some heavy vibrations because I thought I was helping. But they would overtake my body as a virus that would kick my ass. Of course, not all hybrid souls are the same, each has its own task and specialty it needs to develop. It is a big challenge for my Soul to be in a body, so it kept running away, flying in the Universe, traveling among dimensions and other universes it is responsible for. It would go where it was easier to be Light. Or what is worse (or not), it would go to talk to Souls that needed her and it would come back with heavy energy that would make my body sick. In those moments my body would be unprotected and prone to influences. Now I understood how all this made me feel a little lost. Once I cleared from my energy everything that was not mine, I could understand choices of my soul and how my energy functions. It took 10 regressions, 2 lbls, 6 energy healing sessions, 2 ajahuasca ceremonies (I am writing this for those that will say ’But entire life will pass before I do that. One session should be enough. You should be able to command your soul to do what you want to, you can wave a hand, a magic wand etc and everything will be as I say.’) People, this is what you came here for and many lives passed before you learned how to make difficulties into progress (you chose them because you wanted to specialize something that it has inside of it self). This is actually fast (although you will hear me whine, plus there is no guarantee that it is over yet) because as a therapist I know I have to look for trauma that caused it all, so I annoy healers with my questions, but they help me integrate. Besides, I am blessed with great support from spirit world that I would not risk with some foolishness.

Being a hybrid soul is great advantage in my practice- channeling and understanding of spirit world is completely different, and the ways they help clients through me is beyond my comprehension (I was told I do not need to understand everything, so it does not matter). I decided to write all this because of other hybrid souls, I know form my personal experience that it is hard to find an open minded therapist who would support and accept everything that a soul like that can bring to the plate. The text itself might be someones support. I used my own example because, this is what I know best, and I wanted to explain why is incarnation in matter important, in spite of everything (soul does not have to be in a body to create). Once I viewed all those stories I could catch the thread that was connecting them all. I always insist on clarifying an intention before a session because this takes us straight to a life that binds hundreds or thousands of lives with the same topics. This thread is what brought you here again, and what brings you to my session, or some other therapy, you need to catch it, disentangle it, not only to experience something, see your other selves, describe alien worlds etc. You need to disentangle it to be able to entangle yourself to your soul that can take you further, and explain to you why it wants or does not want something. This thread carries your healing, transformation and higher purpose inside itself (your soul group and sol mate too). One session is not enough for this, but one is enough to find a key life and lessons that you did not learn then. Once you understand and integrate them, it becomes easier (this does not mean there will be no difficulties ever again because others have their own choices and tend to learn through trial and error as long as they need them). Please, do not start pondering if you are a hybrid soul now. Those that are, have a deep sense of it and longing for home. Besides, you can always pay me a visit and we will check. If you think you do not need a therapist for that, you are wrong; you do need one due to ego games and integration too- simply, you cannot guide your own process, ask questions and integrate information while your brain is in theta state, beta frequency is needed for it, and your brain cannot be on both waves at the same time.

So I bid you farewell until you pay me a visit, I have some work to do, you know, there seem to be a Shakespeare inside of me that needs to be fired from head playwrigth position, he is out of control!!